Wake me up when I'm dead.

I don't know what to do :( My life's starting to fall apart again. I'm so scared. I just wanna die. I feel so alone and like, this whole school year I'm just gonna cry and cry and cry I'm so tired of this. And now I'm gonna have to face this alone. Without Keth by my side. Yeah Mei's there, but I don't really think she's a hundred percent there for me. Don't get me wrong, I love her. But there are times when I think that she doesn't want me to be around and stuff. I don't have any friends there. And he's there. What am I gonna do now? I want to transfer sections, but I can't since I don't wanna leave her behind :'(

I can't do this anymore... this is so hard I'm willing to give up everything just to be happy again. This is my last year at ESPS for God's sake. I can't be like this... but I have no choice, right? I'm gonna be miserable as hell for about a year. I'm gonna miss out on everything :'(