I guess it's just not meant to be.

*tears*

I thought everything was okay. But the fact is, it wasn't.

I'm like crying so hard right now .. I don't know what to do. I love him so much and it hurts that I can't be with him. Memei said before that it was all good and she wanted me to be happy. She said that it seems unfair if she's the only one happy and I'm not. But today ... I don't exactly know what happened. I was talking to Keth over the phone and I she suddenly said that I should take a look at Mei's shoutout on her Friendster profile. I was really shocked and really hurt when I saw it. It says "be happy! THEN GET LOST!" It's pretty much obvious that it was for me :(

She and Fei even asked if Patrick and I were a couple now. And I'm like, no .. we're not. I'm not replying to any of Patrick's text messages. I really want to but, it's just gonna hurt even more. I wanna be with him But as I've said before, it's impossible. I should've known. How can I be so stupid? Why did I even think that this could ever work?

*sighs*

We have LOADS of homework and I'm just ready to die right now. I'm so tired .. I just want to be alone.